This is a story of a life being saved through alcoholism.
As a small child things were comfortable materially. The atmosphere was quite changeable as the father was a drinker and we never knew when he was going to show up starting trouble, then the cops would be called and he would calm down.
There were good times also, we would go to the shore in the summer and we would relax and have fun. Father would disappear and get drunk but wouldn't bother anybody.
I was a confused troublesome kid always in trouble and looking for love and attention in the wrong places, becoming very promiscuous and earning a reputation that followed me everywhere. This made me feel guilty and sad but I seemed powerless to be anything else. My search for something better began but still looking in wrong places.The search finally led to drinking and parties which led to more trouble and alcoholism.
Life became very complicated and as I went from man to man, two husbands and two children which I left to pursue the search thinking that the second husband was the answer, but he was not. After much rebellious and immoral living I did not know what was to become of me. After a few meetings at Alanon I was brought to AA and this was the beginning of the end of this crude character I had become.
Now in AA I was torn between the party girl and trying to learn how to be a responsible person. Through a sponser, Co AA's, the 12 steps and a relationship with God, changes have set in.
I am married again and trying to be a decent wife. Both of my children are in my life and we love each other. I am back in the house I was born in with my husband who is a good man and we have a great dog. Life is simple and I love it that way. I attend as many meetings as I can and I am spreading God's word in my actions and continuing to work on myself to achieve being the Child of God I had strayed from. I pray that this story will help someone to know that no matter how low one goes, one can begin a climb upward with the help of God.